Solitary Confinement......

Monday, 20th of October 2008

Woke at around six in the morning, had some weird bogus nightmares which I am too embarrassed to post. Cannot stand it anymore, took my shower and went to school. My emotions started working up cause I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. Saw Eugene first thing I came to school, sorry for being so cold. I sat there leaning my back to the pillar watching the students coming and going. I then realized that my beg weighed a ton on my laps. I got so mad that I chucked my bag aside. The first thing that came up to mind was the hatred of 'Somebody'. Those 'Somebody's think that they are actually lending a hand to those who will need it, but what they do not know is that they are playing God passing down 'judgment' to those who are innocent and do not require their assistance. They just chucked us those books thinking that they will be acknowledged as heroes but actually the students hinder their hatred, sealing it away deep into them. Parents, they supported the 'Somebody's to give us the books, and now what? We have about a month left in school and what do we do? We sit down on the assembly ground wasting our precious time. The assembly ground...... I sat down alone in the corner. Flocks of people gathered and chatter among themselves. I sat there, observing them. That deep hatred never subsided from heart, I stared at everyone coldly as all of them turned their backs on me. Recess was a breeze, nothing that concerns me anyway. Finally getting those books off me. I swore that I would not borrow any of 'Somebody's book for the rest of my life. They aspect us to clean up all the muck that the previous person did just in order to give people the good impression that they are handing out first quality books. I am sick of it......Disgusted...... We are having a bunch of crazy activities next week and the week after. We had a briefing on what is coming up. The prefects were called out eventually by the vice-principle for a personal briefing. It seems that we have to be doing jobs throughout the whole fortnight, at least that would keep my mind off things that should not even be in there. The principle came and gave a few pieces of advice...... Prefects are leaders......and the whole load that I did not catch. I was thinking to myself, if we prefects were only leading the students and kept on going up, what would happen to those that were left behind? I pondered on that question deeply in my thoughts. I pledged oath that I would be the prefect that stays behind others, helping them up if they ever fall. Bell rang, we all gave Eugene and Chy Yun a hell of a hard time. Reading their expressions, they were not very pleased at our actions or opinions. We headed for the auditorium and listened 'intensively' to the speech that our counseling teacher gave us. Was so interesting that I almost fell asleep. Went home ten minutes earlier than usual.
Took a shower then went to take a cat nap. Slept till seven in the evening. Not much happened today. Still pissed off at 'Somebody' for the stupid books. Kept away from friends for no reason what so ever......Solitary confinement......
This post was dedicated to my anger and hatred.